I'm so confused
1) I've rejoined the ranks of anti-depressant users. I got really tired of the pointless stressing, inability to think clearly, obsessive thoughts and self-destructive interference. This is day 5, I think. I feel a little wired, but most of the jitters have settled down.
The best way I can describe my depression is that it's been like viewing the world under a dim light. I saw and could enjoy the beauty, the fun, the laughter and good company, but I couldn't really feel it. The detachment was getting old. Maybe this will help. In any case, I voted for myself by talking with my amazing physician about it.
2) A dear old friend in Ohio has just been diagnosed with stage 3b endometrial cancer. We've talked a couple of times in the past few days. She's a bit older than me, and I've been an honorary member of her family for about 20 years. She hesitated to call me at first because we haven't been in touch for a few years (though her father visited us last summer) and she felt funny about it. I reminded her that we don't have a requirement for keeping in touch. I'm thinking maybe I can help her out when it's time for radiation, as she has retinopathy brought on by diabetes, and can't drive herself.
3) A good friend is having some difficulty with her son's pre-school situation. Evidently a child has harassed him and hit him. She and her husband are ordering the child to hit back. To the extent that the father has told the son (who's just about to turn 4) that if he doesn't hit back, he (the father) will hit the son. WTF!?!?!?! I tried as best I could to stfu when she was telling me this story, as she was upset and pretty riled about the school. I wanted to ask: Do you really want to teach your son that violence is the proper course of action? Did you really just tell me that your husband threatened your son with violence if he did not react with violence toward the kiddie bully at pre-school? I was horrified. But I could tell it wasn't the moment to reflect back to her what she was telling me. Holy hell!
What would bacon do? Cuz I surely don't know what.
7 Comments:
I hope that the meds offer your some clarity. I've started therapy in addition to the Effexor, and it's a wonderful thing.
I'm sorry about your friends. Be there if you can for your friend in Ohio. I have no words about the other situation, except maybe OMGWTF?
good for you for taking action in regard to your depression. you described it very well.
you're an amazing friend and i'm sure your friend in ohio will be happy to be back in touch.
as for the other...re: kids/bullying...YIKES. how do you respond to that? i mean GUH!
btw...thanks, too, for listening to me.
*hug*
Bacon would (in order):
1) Tempt a Vegan. (Maybe twice)
2) Sizzle, then Taste Really Good
3) Shrivel
Ok, seriously:
1) Cheers to you for taking charge! (yeah, I know I already told you that -- it bears repeating.)
2) You are the most healing person I know -- your friend in Ohio will be blessed to have you there. I hope this friend in Ohio gets to have dinner and an evening of Scrabble with you while you're here.
3) OK, really: WTF????? Dad needs help. Where's Hippie's Wrath when we need it?
I hope the meds help, my friend. I'm glad you voted for you. :hug:
I'm thinking of going back on antidepressants myself.
Good luck!
the good friend with the child in pre-school? if you two are good friends some truth about the situation delivered non-judgmentally would be refreshing... just saying
good luck with the ADs, tried that route and found my way back...
cancer is an evil disease, still struggling with my friend's trials with t-cell lymphoma, he made tremendous progress and looked like he had it beat, but now it's back with a vengeance...so sad...i know you will make a difference in your friend's life...
blessings
good luck with all of it....it's a lot to deal with....you are an amazing woman.... here's hoping for friends, [legal] drugs and rock n roll : )
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